Create a little, every day

2021 is finally here.

While nothing magically changes with the passing of one calendar year to the next, giving ourselves the option to re-evaluate and reinvent ourselves serves as a little bit of proof in resiliency and hope. I’m going to try and go easy on myself this year and just ask, just nudge, that I do something creative every single day. Even if it’s jotting one phrase down on a piece of paper, or putting on a song and dancing to it. Since March 12, every fiber of my being has been concerned with survival. It has kept me alive (thanks, lizard brain!), but has left me tired, anxious, and still longing for more. I read somewhere that human beings essentially need three things: safety, identity, and novelty. 2020 showed me that these things have always actually been in constant flux. You can’t wait for one cup to fill up all the way before getting to the next one. It never will.

It’s 2021, and the danger has not passed. We’re still in a global pandemic. I’m still unemployed. The industry is still essentially on hold and no one has the answers to much of anything. But right now, I’m sitting at my desk with a cup of coffee and the sky is not falling. I can jot down a word, pick up my guitar, do a little work on my screenplay, hum a tune, even if it feels like ripping something out of my chest. Even if my brain tells me that my ideas are stupid before they even leave my head. I don’t care. It’s my intention to be on social media as little as possible this year, so I’m going to try using this space as the home of my creative goings on, once I have things I feel are worth sharing with others. I hope I will. If I create a little, every day, it might remind me that I’m alive, and that’s a good thing.